Lord, help me make things come together. I found out my mom was in the hospital today, because of a stressed muscle. If that isn’t a sick twisted irony, I don’t know what is. Help me figure out how to tune my father out when he’s being irrational. Help me figure out how to make my skin thick, my heart locked, and my soul safe from attacks. Because I don’t ever want to complain to my mom now. If I ever lost my mom, I don’t think I could make it. Lord keep her safe. Let the medications not conflict with one another, and help her to feel better, and get healthy. Help me be more patient and understanding, and help me study for this physics exam tomorrow. Thank you Jesus for the blessings you’ve already bestowed and the ones to come. Your way is always the right way, no matter how confused I may get. Thank you for your guidance and your love.
These things I pray,
Pissed While Studying
Ughhh….. Lord help me study. Help me be decent. Help me not carry things that I shouldn’t because I don’t know the whole situation. Lord help me study well. Lord help me do extremely well on this test. And Lord, please bless my relationships. With everyone Lord, help me be better, help me not to judge, help me to not be petty, take away my childish tendencies. Help me to write positive and pray about things instead of post ignorance online.
My feelings aren’t hurt. My feelings aren’t hurt. I’m moving on. Letting go. Period. The end.
Ok. I’m ready to go somewhere else. Anywhere else. It’s not even Christmas yet and my parents have already gotten on my nerves to the max… I haven’t decorated the Christmas tree yet, which of course is my job to do, when they could have done it weeks ago themselves… And I was going to do it later, but now they’re yelling at me to do something that I was genuinely looking forward to, and now I’m being forced to do this thing that I want to enjoy, but it’s just filled with hostility and tension and I don’t understand how they can ruin Christmas. It’s supposed to be the most wonderful time of the year and they fill it with so much stress… I just want to leave. So jealous of the people away from home for the holidays right now…